The last couple of weeks I had an uninvited and unwelcome visitor to my art table.
He has been here before and I am sure he will come again.
I am talking about the Inner Critic.
The voice of self-doubt.
The voice that says:
- What’s the point?
- Your art is no good.
- Who do you think you are?
- How can you expect to help other people if you can’t be a good role model?
How the Inner Critic left and some of what I did in the meantime:
- I cleaned my studio.
- I continued my podcast episodes with Kelly Burkhart.
- I went to the San Francisco Museum of Modern Art. While waiting in the lobby to meet my friend, I overheard part of a conversation:
I don’t even know why that piece of work is here. What makes it art?
This made me realize that getting art into SFMOMA, which to me would be fantastic, there still will be people who don’t get it, appreciate it or like it.
In order for the Inner Critic to leave, I waited.
I know that I can not be myself without visual arts and that this lull would eventually end.
I did not force myself to create. I know that art can be treated as work and a job. I have heard that you should not wait for the muse to show up, you just have to get into the studio and DO IT!
I am over “should”s in my life. (If you want to hear how I did that click here.)
I acknowledged the Inner Critic and yesterday I made this in my visual journal:
It didn’t matter what it looked like, creating a visual representation of my Inner Critic was going to be my own personal process. I did not create it with the intention to share this with you.
But then I thought it may be helpful for you to know that if you go through creativity blocks, you are not alone.
Today I made this in my visual journal:
I would love to hear from you.
What happens when the inner critic visits you? How do you keep going? And how do you recover?
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